Wednesday, May 30, 2007

not so good

I'm just sitting here waiting for Porter to show up for the morning.
Kind of dreading today.
Well not today in itself as much as I wanted to wake up this morning and find that yesterday had been wiped clean. Yesterday was not a good day.
Why is it that is seems so often when I feel we all had a really good quality everything-in-life-is-in-balance weekend, the start of the week hits with things trying to slap me out of that mindset?

I started out not feeling very well yesterday. Couldn't really put my finger on it... I just felt off. With a headache, but that's nothing new. I just felt exhausted and wiped out with no motivation for some reason.
And then I had a touchy situation with a friend that I was trying to deal with throughout the day and it didn't turn out as I hoped. Along with another 'feel-bad' situation with another acquaintance.
Got a phone call from a mom from Savannah's school who never received her last book order so the teachers and I were scrambling around trying to find that.
And then to top it all off last evening, we got some really bummer news about our house.
All that getting the perfect buyers, perfect timing and other good stuff I wrote about the other day? Yeah, cancel that.

Just kind of an emotionally exhausting day when I started out feeling pretty drained to begin with. And I don't mean to be a downer, I just needed to vent real quick. Like maybe getting it out of my system will help me pick up and have a better day.

And why shouldn't it be a better day? It's sunny and supposed to be in the 90's. I filled up the pool yesterday and we have a couple of friends coming over to splash around with us this afternoon. At the moment I'm really dreading company and having to be happy and social. I'm just not in the mood. But I know we'll have fun once we're out there in the sunshine. I just have to get through the morning, lunch with these three kids, and hopefully a decent naptime first.

And it's Wednesday right? Halfway to the weekend...

4 comments:

Mom said...

I'm sorry!Wish I could make things better. Mothers always have a way of wanting their children to be pain free & happy no matter where they are or how old they get.(nothing bad meant by that of course)Trust.There must be a reason ,that we obviously can't understand.Be thankful for all you are blessed with and think positive.As far as the headache,remember to be good to yourself and eat healthy,AND drink your water.You are loved!!!!

LeeAnn said...

Hey, I should have read your blog before coming over this afternoon. You'll have to fill me in on the house situation. Cheer up!! =)

Amie R said...

Hope your day ended up going better than expected. Sorry about the house thing. God is still good and He is still in control. Sometimes it just seems like it would be easier to skip ahead a few months, and not have to live through the uncertainties. BUT life already goes too fast anyway and we would miss too many moments with our babies if we skipped ahead. Unfortunately we can miss those moments anyway if we get caught up in the day to day junk of life. I have been thinking about this a lot lately!

Annie said...

Happy Anniversary!! Yay! The BIG 5 years!! Hope you enjoy doing something extra-fun with your honey. Love you! (Sorry about the other things going on that make things kind of a bummer right now). Maybe you need a fun trip to Oregon...just a thought! Annie